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Farewell, And Thank You

Posted by Tim Malcolm, Fri, June 26, 2009 07:00 AM | Comments: 102
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Hello Nation,

As some of you may have seen, I’ve been away from the site for a week. And during the week absence I came to some conclusions about my future; in prioritizing my life, I have realized writing at Phillies Nation can no longer be a priority.

So this is my farewell.

My very first post at Phillies Nation came Dec. 17, 2007. In the post, I wrote about how the Phillies needed to take charge in the 2008 season:

The Phils are rumored to be close to signing Geoff Jenkins. That’s a start. There are still pitching holes to solve. They must grab another starter and a back-end reliever. If it takes Carlos Carrasco and Josh Outman, so be it. Chase Utley, Ryan Howard and Jimmy Rollins are in their absolute primes. Cole Hamels is a stud. Brett Myers will likely put up good numbers. There’s enough of a supporting cast to carry these guys to 85 wins again, but they need the three pieces left to get them to 95.

Ownership frugality aside, there’s potential for the Phillies to run away with the city’s heart. Now is the time. Front office — you’re the best team in the city. You won. Now go for the jugular.

Who knew my fist-out proclamation would show true less than a year later? I had written at a previous blog that the 2008 Phillies had the opportunity to accomplish special goals, but did I really believe it then? Did any of us really believe that team’s capabilities? Heck, I didn’t completely believe it in September 2008. Deep inside, we’re all skeptics.

After that initial post I struggled to find a voice. I bashed the team’s signing of So Taguchi (in retrospect, kudos to me) and wrote a horrible breakdown of the Durbin signing. It took some time, but I found a groove that I rode for quite a while. I visited Clearwater for the first time, really immersing myself in my love of the Phillies.

Then tragedy struck.

I’ll never forget the outpouring of well wishes and thoughts I received after losing my home to an apartment fire in April 2008. During that trying time, the Phillies were my crutch, and you all were my eyes and ears. That’s when I learned the true value of Phillies Nation — that no matter what, people were behind you, looking out for you. That feeling rose as the Phillies made their annual late-season run, accentuated by our bus trip during Labor Day 2008. The Nation was growing, both literally and figuratively. And in a whirl, the Phils were division champions, then league champions. Then world champions.

Often I scroll back at the posts I wrote during that cherished run of October 2008. I poured a lot into my writing then, trying desperately to summarize my feelings — and the feelings of the Nation — in small swatches of text. I’d like to believe I had some success bridging words to emotions, and I hope you readers felt what I was attempting to convey.

I remember my nerves during the two parts of game five: Telling everyone “This is the night” on Oct. 29, 2008 was difficult — even when the Phillies were 3.5 innings from a championship, I struggled to be certain. As always, I felt skeptical. But I knew, for the Nation, I had to put on my game face. There were many times I put on my game face, just for the Nation.

I remember the victory itself, leaping and shrieking, calling my father and crying loudly. There was no feeling quite like that in my life. And I bet that if I didn’t follow the team urgently throughout the 2008 season, I wouldn’t have felt that incredible. Sure I would’ve leaped and shrieked, but I wouldn’t have felt a part of something bigger, of a cause that meant more than just sheer fandom.

I remember the parade — the culmination of our work as fans. I most remember the perfectly beautiful weather — 73 degrees, sunshine without a cloud in the sky. People as far as the eye could see clad in red. Smiles on everyone’s faces. Bells, applause, whistles, screams. I trekked on foot from 30th Street Station to the sports complex, absorbing every smiling face and wide eye. Some of these people had been fans for five minutes. Some had been fans for 50 years. And I felt like a part of each one — truly, it was a Phillies Nation.

Since that parade we’ve gone through the same annual emotions: Hope, determination, pride, anger, resentment, disappointment. We question a team that has already proven its mettle, merely because we can, merely because we are fans. As long as they make millions, we can say whatever we will. And that’s the freedom of the fan; it’s what makes Philadelphians a cut aside the rest. We’re brash, we’re direct, we’re furiously passionate.

Since Dec. 17, 2007 I’ve played the role of passionate fan very seriously. In a way, I’ve represented the fan. That came to fruition with a television appearance on a Mets pregame show. But since that moment, my thoughts have led me to this script.

Is there a future in sports blogging? Sure, and hundreds of scribes have cashed their independent blogging efforts into full glory. But that’s not my future. And I have come to grips with that reality.

But I will always be a Phillies fan. I will always root loudly for the team that has gripped my hand since I was a very small child. I will attend games and opine about the state of the team, and I will lurk and possibly comment once in a while. I will always be a Phillies fan.

So thank you. Thank you for giving — your eyes, your time and your fandom to my words. I appreciate it more than you’ll ever know. Keep reading Phillies Nation, keep rooting for the Phils and keep being the best fans in baseball.

Best,
Tim Malcolm

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Tim Malcolm has written 1947 articles on Phillies Nation.

 
 
  • Posts: 0 Ctp722

    This sucks, hate to see you stop writing for the site. Great meeting you on the DC trip.

     
  • Posts: 0 mg52

    Thank you for all your wisdom, Tim. I wish you the best.

     
  • Posts: 0 Chuck P

    My posts keep getting deleted… this is my third attempt…

    Best of luck, Tim… you will be sorely missed. Your work has helped me get through many long days at work. Your insight helps us all be better fans and this site, in general, gives us the forum to have our voices heard (which is fairly evident listening/reading Phillies media coverage). I appreciate all that you have done to amplify my Phanhood. Don’t be a stranger (if you are moving on to bigger and better things, don’t forget about us).

    Best wishes,

     
  • Posts: 0 Paul

    Sad to see you go Tim, good luck, and go Phils!

     
  • Posts: 0 Griffin

    Selfishly, I am sad to lose Tim’s contributions. Deep down, I understand Tim’s decision and am happy for him. Thanks for everything and best of luck in the future.

     
  • Posts: 0 Philly Texan

    Tim, thanks for all your great work and insights. Your passion for the Phils came through in every post — the joy of unforgettable victories and the frustration of baffling losing streaks. That passion made this blog essential reading for all the other die-hard fans out there. You put words to what we all were feeling.

    Best of luck in the future.

     
  • Posts: 0 Phillies Fan in NYC

    Best of luck Tim, and thanks for everything. You won’t soon be forgotten.

     
  • Posts: 0 mikemike

    good luck and I Think you should pass the torch on to the little guy or geoff to continue the writing?

     
  • Posts: 0 LH

    Tonight I’ll go with Corsendonk Pale Ale. A Belgium brew mastered a few centuries ago and introduce to me by my son. It contains the consistent light scent of hops rather than a single hard rap of the flower. The beautiful amber color reminds me of the hue of my home brewed ale and the enjoyable hours I previously spent making beer. Drink slowly to taste the real champagne of bottled beer. Yet, the bubbles don’t hide the likeable layer of malt that follows throughout the glass. Instead of toasting the Phillies and a good series, I’ll raise my glass to you Tim and your past prose.

    Prosit, Larry

     
  • Posts: 0 TODDFROMFAIRMOUNT

    Tim, I’ve never met you, but I feel like we are best friends. Hope to see you at one of my tailgates. We have a mock trophy and a big 2008 red banner. Usually at the Holiday Inn. Stop by and say hi sometime. The Nation will live on forever because of you. Wheat beer festival at South Philadelphia Tap Room tomorrow, 2pm. Fightins’ at 1pm.

    All the best, TH

     
  • Posts: 0 Grrrumpy Miner

    Tim,we may not know each other but as a Mets fan and for the Legitimate Mets fans,I just want to say Thank You and have fun in your next venture.I have seen youse guys celebrate (And hope the Amazins fans celebrate in 2009) and I have seen your heartache with the fire last year and the loss of Harry Kalas (Too many HUGE losses this year ESP. the last 3 days with Ed McMahon,Farrah Fawcett and of course Michael Jackson) which is the equivalent of Bob Murphy for us a few years back.Next time Phils are at CitiField and you see Grumpy 37 in the stands,Grab me and we’ll share a beer together.In the meantime Don’t be a stranger,just be strange! lol

     
  • Posts: 0 Grrrumpy Miner

    And another thing….this Webpage and those who run it know what they are doing,with the exception of a few IDIOTS and Met fans who do come in here who if you multiply their IQ by 10 they might have enough common sense to tying their shoes if they don’t dribble all over themselves first.You have done a good job keeping this room in line.Oh and one more thing……….LETS GO METS!

     
  • Posts: 0 Sean B

    Tim, this website won’t be the same without you. Your writing made this my favorite phillies wesbite and I’ll miss your beer selections!

    good luck in the future and go phils!

     
  • Posts: 0 Frank

    let some1 else do the sight

     
  • Posts: 0 nate

    wow. this is extremely disheartening, but i have to wish you the best and hope that someone else can come close to filling your shoes. i echo the sentiments of all above. your articles will be missed.

     
  • Posts: 0 Wilson

    Thanks Tim! Sad to see you go…but good luck in the future!

     
  • Posts: 0 JohnKruksLoveChild

    There is NO better Phils blog then Phillies Nation, and you were a big part of that Tim. Kudos for all the time and effort you put into this site, whether it is said out loud or not, there are literally thousands of people that appreciate it on a daily basis. This site has been on my daily bookmarks list for awhile now, and I really look forward to reading the articles and getting into the debates in the comments. Don’t ever second guess yourself or your writing, if it’s from the heart, that’s all that counts.

    Once again thank you and good luck in all your endeavors !

     
  • Posts: 0 Evan

    Tim,

    I thought you sounded great on the Mets pregame broadcast. You had a calm demeanor and came across as informative and professional. If either journalism or broadcasting is what you’re pursuing, you’ve got the right stuff. Good luck in whatever you do, thanks for making this blog a great place to go for Phils coverage for the past year or so. I hope you post occassionally and be sure to let everyone know if you end up doing any professional work covering sports or news or anything of the like. GOOD LUCK!

     
  • Posts: 0 AmazinCiti

    From a Mets fan….Good luck in the future, your site, although filled with Philly fans, whom I would probably greatly enjoying clobbering in the face if I ever met them, is well written and extremely enjoyable to read. This is especially true when the Phillies are playing awful baseball such as right now.

     
  • Posts: 0 AmazinSux

    AmazinShiti: Would love to meet you, tough guy!

     
  • Posts: 0 Bret

    I was wondering why their were actually readable posts for the last week or so…..we didnt have to read your “lets jump off the bridge” columns of how bad the Philles are.

    Youre a good writer but you let your fandom take over your writing.

    I agree with your own assessment of yourself, blogging is not for you and shouldnt be in your future….stick to the real stuff.

     
  • Posts: 0 philsphan

    Bret,

    Maybe you should correct your own writing instead of critiquing good writers like Tim.

    Tim, Bret is in the minority. You will be sorely missed here at the Nation.

     
  • Posts: 0 Deanno

    It came in 3`s…………………M jACKSON, fARRAH and now Tim.. Tim great hangin out with you in FLA AND GOOD LUCK BRO……………….

     
  • Posts: 0 Bret

    Philsphan,

    I dont pretend to be a writer. I actually love the site, but Tim’s “columns” were over the top. The rest of the site is and hopefully stays great.

     
  • Posts: 0 joedad

    Good luck Tim. Job well done young man

     
  • Posts: 0 Miles

    Bret, those of us who enjoy this site and enjoy Tim’s writing is because he represents a Phillies fan in his writing. Anyone who takes phandom completely out of the equation and attempts to write ESPN-like columns does little to interest most of us. When we were frustrated, it was nice to see Tim echo the frustrations. When we were excited, there was nothing better than seeing that excitement in Tim’s post game wrap-up.

    Tim, I’ve only been lurking around the site for a short time but kudos to you on the good work. Hopefully you can write a guest column about the defending champs in a few months.

     
  • Posts: 0 Kennedy

    Wow, that sucks, you know you’re still gonna be checking out the site every now and then.

    Are there any openings to write for this blog? It is easily the best Phils blog out there.

     
  • Posts: 0 BS

    Aww bummer, sad to see you go so soon (for me at least). I’d only recently discovered this site, but quickly came to appreciate all that you do for it. I hope to see you around every now and then on the site. But best of luck moving forward!

     
  • Posts: 0 Geoff

    Just got back from DC, shame to hear about your passing the reins. Thanks for all of your hard work and dedication to the Phillies and to Phillies Nation. I echo the sentiment that without Phillies Nation, the World Series Run and Championship Experience would NOT have been the same at all. This is the best baseball blog and one of the best sports blogs out there – maybe we’re biased – but it enhances the fan experience unlike ANY other media forum.

    Tim, thank you and best wishes.

    Peace

     
  • Posts: 0 Flying Dad Bomb

    Tim,

    As a Met fan, very rarely do I comment on this blog. However, reading your posts, which are always concise, reasonable, and thorough, has allowed me to gain a better understanding and perspective for a despised rival. Best of luck to you and your future endeavors. I hope everything works out in your favor (with the exception of one thing, of course lol).

    -FDB

     
  • Posts: 0 adam

    Turn to Beerleaguer

     
  • Posts: 0 Keith E

    Tim, good luck with your future endeavors. You have a certain eloquence that can sometimes make baseball sound like ballet. That in itself is a gift and should be nurtured. Where are you headed? Everyone’s dream job; beer critic!! Again, thanks. Keith

     
  • Posts: 0 Bruce

    Tim, I had this funny feeling something was up with you during your week’s absence from this site. Now I understand that you probably saw yourself at a crossroad in making a decision on specific goals in your young life.

    Heartfelt thanks for your insight and passionate opinions. Naturally, I have not always agreed with you but I have the greatest respect for the intelligence, lucidity and the eloquence you put in your presentations.

    Good luck in future endeavors.

     
  • Posts: 1650 Tim Malcolm

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    All,

    Thank you for the warm words. They’re very appreciated.

    A few points:
    - I’ll be “around,” just not posting.
    - To the few who immediately decided to try out another blog: Shame on you. I am not Phillies Nation. I just wrote here. Give a place a chance before turning away.
    - No, no, the video I did wasn’t the reason I decided this. I wouldn’t resign over a video.

    Again, thank you all.

     
  • Posts: 0 A.J.

    Tim,

    Thanks for everything you have done. Ignore the haters.

    -AJ aka MP

     
  • Posts: 0 Jp

    Tim, I met you in clearwater this spring…you’re a great guy and best of luck to you man!!!!!!!

     
  • Posts: 0 Andrew

    I thought this was tims site? who runs it?
    Does it make any money? so Tim was jsus posting as a fan?
    The site is staying up?
    I am a bit confused

     
  • Posts: 0 R.C. Cowie

    Really? Does anyone ever read the About Us section? It’s there for a reason.

     
  • Posts: 0 Andrew

    I didnt even know there was a section. ill look now

     
  • Posts: 0 Mazinman

    Sorry to hear you won’t be writing anymore here Tim. I always enjoying reading your posts wether I agreed or disagreed. Still, I am glad you will still be lurking around so full good-byes are not needed.

    I hope that whatever endevours you decide to pursue now end with the greatest success possible.

     
  • Posts: 0 DeanH

    A big disappointment on top of the Phils being so disappointing. Hope it does not keep going downhill!

     
  • Posts: 0 Fran

    Tim great job on the site. I wish you the best

     
  • Posts: 0 Amanda's old man

    Tim- Best of luck. Great job with your postings. It was a blast in DC.

     
  • Posts: 0 Jonathan

    Tim,

    I hope you reconsider and continue to post occasionally. You’re obviously a good writer, and I predict you will miss it after some time away. Please don’t adopt the view that this is a final parting.

    I’ve enjoyed your work immensely and it has helped me reconnect with my own childhood memories of baseball, which like your own, are wrapped up in memories of my father.

     
  • Posts: 0 RJ Swooner

    Good Riddance! Great writer, but a short tempered lad. Like to see how you’d shoot down my thoughts in person. Bloggers, tough guys, especially through the typed word.

     
  • Posts: 0 Phil

    You are the best blog writer I’ve ever read. I am sad to see you go. Good luck in life and your future. You have a promising future ahead of you. Thanks for all of the great reads. GO PHILS!

     
  • Posts: 0 JeffS

    Tim,
    I’ll miss your writing, but I’m happy to think you have a great phuture ahead of you. Thanks for all your work.

     
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  • Posts: 0 Mike

    Tim–

    Your love of Phillies and good beer is unmatched. Thanks for the great writing and best in your future.

     
  • Posts: 0 bigbobster

    Tim, as a huge Phils fan who needs to share passions for other things in life, I think I get a sense of why you made the decision. Hope you bring the same dedication to your future work that you have brought here. I still remember the positive tone you took prior to the Milwaukee series sweep late last year, when many bloggers were writing off the eventual WS champs. And of course, the awesome research you did for the 100 top Phillies list. First-rate stuff. Best of luck…pop into the Grey Lodge sometime for good Phils discussion.

     
 
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